WHAT TIME IS IT ?

Jumat, 23 Desember 2011

Only tears,heaven and grandma ♥

It's been 1months since grandma passed away , no one can forget her . 
I'm the one of that . I can't forget you grandma
you're like my second mother
I still remember when you gave me some money and chocolate
I still remember when you sing a happy song for me
I know that you love me so much , same as the way I loved you so much


I still have a lot of questions to god
why god take her as soon as this
this isn't a good time
not by this way
not by cancer
not by the way that disease killing my grandma slowly


Everytimes I remember about grandma
my tears drop
how much I love you grandma
sometimes I wish you could saw me married
but god has another plan
you should gone
I'm happy , cause cancer won't hurt you anymore
But I'm mad , why I have to lost you by this way ?


I still remember when I got a called
And the informed me that you're just gone
that's like hit my heart 
tears suddenly drops from my eyes


sometimes I want to flashback to my childhood
to the moment when you play with me
to the moment when you make me calm when I lost my doll
to the moment when you touch my hair softly
I love your smell grandma


I hope you happy in heaven now
get a peace
get a happiness


in the world without you
I'm just counting .. how much my tears drop when I miss you grandma
sometimes I worried
would you know my name if I saw you in heaven ?
would you remember me ? your grandchild
would you remember our memory ?


grandma
sometimes I wish I could save you from the cancer
sometimes I wish I could be a best doctor in the world , so I could help you , save you , loivng you for a long time
now I'm just regret ...
why I'm not beside you when you need someone to accompany you


.....


I can't turn back the times
I can't ignore god's plan
now it's only tears , heaven , and grandma
but no matter what happend 
you're still in my heart and my mind
I know you still watching me from heaven


I love you grandma , I love you like the way you love me

Kamis, 22 Desember 2011

30 HAPPY THINGS♡

Happy things in my life



  1. when I feel a part of my love life looks like a romantic scene in movie
  2. good movie with a good snack
  3. buy A LOT OF dvd
  4. crying when watching sad movie
  5. laughing when watching funny movie
  6. screaming when watching creepy movie
  7. free day
  8. get money after work
  9. get text "good morning" from secret admirer
  10. listen to a song which same with my experience life
  11. someone says "you're beautiful" ... aw
  12. laughing as loud as I can with friends
  13. gossiping someone I hate .... ups I'm your haters b*tch
  14. no alarm for waking me up
  15. watch funny video on youtube
  16. SPEEDY WITH A PERFECTOOO CONNECTION
  17. having a day off from everything
  18. makes my little sister cry , yay that's funny !
  19. get a job in weekend
  20. stand in chicken cordon bleu food stall
  21. my dad back to home
  22. weekend with complete family (mom,dad,sister)
  23. lazy sunday
  24. hair treatment at salon
  25. old comic books
  26. baby's smile
  27. sleeping all the day
  28. free eat ... in the wedding party
  29. love at first sigh
  30. get a text "i love your blog"

"Awas lagi galak"

kalau lagi badmood itu ... 
bikin nafsu makan berkurang
bikin apa pun yang lucu jadi menjengkelkan
bikin siapapun yang ngomong rasanya ngeganggu banget
bikin orang yang ribet pengen di marah-marahin

kalau gini terus bisa-bisa orang masang papan bertuliskan "awas lagi galak" . hari ini kesehatan tubuh sama sekali ngga banget , ngga banget nya tuh bener-bener gak banget . mulai dari sakit perut , sakit kepala , dan sakit hati #eh . hal yang kaya gini yang bikin badmood banget . berhubung di rumah ga ada siapa-siapa lagi selain si ade , dia lah yang jadi korban bulan-bulanan pelampiasan badmood malam ini , he-he-he . si ade lagi minum gatau kenapa aku marahin "minum terus!" ... duh udah kaya orang sinting malem ini tuh . belum lagi tetangga sebelah karoke lagu mandari , dengan volume kayaknya maximal dari tuh stereo , gatau kenapa , aku langsung buka jendela kamar , dan teriak dari balkon kamar "berisik woy!" .... aku sendiri juga kaget kenapa tiba-tiba jadi gila kaya gitu -_- , dan beberapa menit kemudian... karoke pun berhenti . HAHAHA .

Rabu, 21 Desember 2011

SELAMAT HARI IBU

SELAMAT HARI IBU <3 , AKU SAYANG IBU



Cintaku untuk mama


Angel - Lagu cinta untuk mama
Apa yang ku berikan untuk mama
untuk mama
tersayang
Tak ku miliki sesuatu berharga
untuk mama
tercinta
Hanya ini ku nyanyikan
senandung dari hatiku untuk mama
hanya sebuah lagu sederhana
lagu cintaku untuk mama
Walau tak dapat s’lalu ku ungkapkan
kata cintaku
‘tuk mama
Namun dengarlah hatiku berkata
sungguh ku sayang
padamu mama
Oh, hanya ini ku nyanyikan
senandung dari hatiku untuk mama
hanya sebuah lagu sederhana
lagu cintaku untuk mama
Percayalah hanya diriku paling mengerti
kegelisahan jiwamu mama
dan arti kata kecewamu
Mama yakinlah hanya aku yang paling memahami
besar arti kejujuran diri
indah sanubarimu mama

percayalah…
lagu cintaku untuk mama…

Selasa, 20 Desember 2011

No more you , I miss you

by : Endah Wahyunni




"missing you"


long time no see
long time no communication
long time no contact
how are you now ?
have you eat ?
have you sleep ?
have you move on ?


I don't know where you are
where are you now ?
I miss you
I wanna hold you tight
I wanna hug you
I'm missing you
thought I haven't slept in two days
I think of you tonight


I miss the way you hold my hand
I miss the way you me me calm
I miss the way you make me laugh
I miss you so bad
these hands miss yours
cause the spaces between my fingers
are right where yours fit perectly


these eye miss yours
I miss the way we look each other
I miss the way you wipe my tears
now no more and no one wipe my tears
I'm just let my tears fall


I miss the moment when we sing a song together
I miss the moment when you sing a song for me
and I sing a song for you
but there is no more like that
you're the reason for the tearsdrop on my guitar


this city
give me a lot of memories with you
every moment with you is the sweetest one
someday I will leave this town
and forget you
no ..... I mean
I'll keep you in my mind and in my heart
because I realized , you're the best one that I ever loved




BY : ENDAH WAHYUNNI @ENDAHWAH




WOW good responses

Good morning , have a nice wednesday all ! I'm so happy today to check my blog viewers , today I've got 262 from indonesia , 30 from USA , 18 from russia , 5 from germany . so excited that my blog are get a good responses from the other :) . I hope you can give me critic and suggestion to be a better blogger and be a good blog with a high quality inside .



WHAT THE HELL ?

sekarang jam menunjukkan pukul setengah 1 pagi ! gila keasikan di depan komputer dari pulang les sekitar jam 7malem , check blog , pas liat jam kok udah 12:05 am , aku kira settingnya error , tapi pas di check ngga , dan saat liat jam dinding di kamar , *TADAAAA* 


WHAT THE HELL ? 12 AM ? I THOUGHT IT WAS 9PM . OH MY GOD , HOW LONG I STAY IN FRONT OF THE MONITOR ?


keasikan di depan komputer selama berjam-jam bener-bener bikin lupa waktu , dan aku baru inget kalau aku belum makan malem ----"
astagaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! 3hari berturut-turut begadang sampe tengah malem. gini nih kebiasaan pelaajr nganggur kalau lagi liburan , kerjaannya di depan monitor , apalagi ditambah internet yang on 24jam. dan sampe saat ini , sampe saat saya sedang mengetik entri ini , belum ada niat buat tidur sama sekali ... mungkin efek tidur pulas 3 jam saat tadi siang . duhh tapi tangan mulai kerasa kaya rematik , sakit sakit gajelas. mungkin karna keseringan maen keyboard dan mose.

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You're my everything







You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well, 
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space, 
You're every minute of my everyday.
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/m/michael_buble/everything.html ]
And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man, 
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through, 
And you know that's what our love can do.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.


So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

Maybe I'm a good actress

If we talk about the truth and honest , I'm officially missing you .
I miss your sweet smile , so good to me , so right .
I miss the way we laugh.

But ...
the fact , I'm pretending like I'm not like that
I have to pretending like everything is ok
I have to pretending like I'm not hurt
I have to smile , although my heart wants to cry

this hand miss your
this heart miss you

If you thought that I'm strong enough ... you wrong
If you thought that I'm not good enough .. you wrong
Maybe I'm a good actress
So I can handle and pretend , like nothings wrong with me 

In memoriam , tragedy 6 march 2011

kecelakaan pertama , dan semoga menjadi kecelakaan saya yang terakhir seumur hidup . Amin ya Rabbalamin
berawal dari niat baik untuk CFD , bersama alrin dan yosi . ga ada sedikit pun firasat buruk atas kecelakaan yang terjadi pada sekitar pukul 11 itu ....

berangkat menggunakan sepedah dari rumah sekitar jam 6 pagi (sendirian) walau memang pagi hari itu udara dingin tidak seperti biasanya ... 
niat ke CFD buat nonton angklung smansa tampil , dan janjian dengan yosi . sampai disana ... ga ada firasat apa-pun , kami main , berbonceng sepedah , yaaa tidak ada yang aneh .
lelah dengan CFD , aku,yosi,dan alrin pergi ke McD simpang untuk mengenyangkan perut .
belum sempat memesan makanan , aku liat jam , dan ternyata sudah pukul 9 . di saat itu aku memutuskan untuk pulang karna jalan akan semakin ramai dengan mobil dan motor , dan pasti sulit sekali berkendara sepedah di tengah kondisi jalan seperti itu .

diperjalanan pulang , aku mengayuh sepedah bisa dibilang dengan cukup santai , yap masih teringat sekali .. sekitar pukul 9lebih , mengayuh sepedah disekitar jalan trunojoyo , dan mendengarkan lagu maliq dari hape menggunakan headset.
karna merasa akan jenuh di rumah , diputuskanlah untuk singgah dulu ke movieroom , disana sekitar 3dvd saya beli , sudah ada niat, sampai rumah , mandi , langsung nonton dvd , tp Allah berkata lain ..

sekitar pukul 11 pagi menjelang siang , saya sudah berada di sekitar jalan terate , yang mana tinggal beberapa meter lagi menuju rumah . entah sial , ataupun nasib , sebuah motor melaju kencang dan menyenggol stang sepedah sebelah kiri , kejadian begitu sangat cepat , badan langsung terpental ke tengah jalan , dimana semua motor dan mobil sedang melaju sangat cepat , bisa dibayangkan ? jika semua kendaraan tidak ng-rem tepat waktu , sedangkan saya masih tersungkur di tengah jalan ... astagfirullah .
saat terbaring di aspal , saya melihat motor vario hitam yang dikendarai seorang pria dewasa , ia menabrak saya , ingat betul betapa tak punya perasaannya , pria itu masih sempat membalikkan wajah dan melihat saya yang tersungkur di tengah jalan , namun ia hanya melajukan kembali motornya dengan sangat cepat .ya Allah .... 

saat itu badan terasa terpental dan menghantam aspal jalan dengan sangat keras , dimana posisi saat terjatuh .. dagu saya lah yang pertama menghantam aspal . disusul dengan badan dan sikut yang menahan .
pandangan saat pertama tersungkur mulai kabur ... posisi saya saat itu dengan tatapan berlawanan dengan arah arus kendaraan yang melalui jalan tersebut . dengan cepat saya duduk , dan berteriak "berhenti ! stop ! stop ! " , mungkin Allah masih kasih saya kesempatan .. semua kendaraan berhenti beberapa cm dari badan saya . nafas terasa berat saat itu ...shock dan air mata berlinang . 

pandangan kunang-kunang , tapi masih jelas terlihat sepasang suami istri menggunakan motor , langsung berlari dan menggotong saya kepinggir jalan , sepedah pun di bawa kepinggir , di pinggir jalan saya merasa mulut saya tak bisa tertutup , dagu saya terasa sakit , dan dada terasa sesak , saat saya mencoba duduk tenang , terlihat darah segar menetes tanpa henti , dan saat saya melihat cermin kecil ... dagu saya ternyata sobek , mungkin akibat hantaman keras pada aspal.

suami-istri yang menolong saya langsung bertanya ..
 
suami : "de ga apa-apa de ?"
istri : "ga apa-apa gimana bapa teh ! liat itu si eneng kasian! harus ke ruamh sakit !dagunya sobek dan lecet nya bayak itu neng"
suami : "rumahnya dimana de ?"
istri : "coba telfon keluarga , minta jemput"

.....

saya cuman bisa diam karna masih kaget , orang-orang yang lewat hanya melihat dengan tatapan kasihan , tanpa ada pertolongan sedikit pun , bisa dibayangkan mungkin ini rencana Allah . padahal saya tinggal sedikit lagi sampe rumah , tp Allah berkata lain .
segera saya menelpon tante 

aku : "miis (tante) , kaka kecelakaan di jalan terate , tolong jemput"
tante : "masyallah ! iya tunggu disana!"

...

sambil menunggu , dada dan nafas terasa semakin sesak , mulut pun suit sekali di tutup , seperti ada yang salah pada tulang rahang , celana di lutut sebelah kanan sobek , namun Allahmdulillah , luka hanyalah lecet .
banyak sekali luka akibat kecelakaan itu , sambil menunggu , darah segar terus menerus mengalir dari dagu .

tak lama , 2 tante dan 2 om  menuju tempat saya . semua terlihat kaget dan malah memberikan saya beragam pertanyaan . 
segera saya menyela pertanyaan mereka dan meminta untuk segera dibawakan ke rumah sakit .

saking paniknya , aku di dempet berboncengan 3 dengan motor ninja , untuk dudukpun rasanya sempit sekali . motor dikemudikan dengan cepat menuju rumah sakit terdekat , rumah sakit muhammadiyah bandung .

tante saya langsung berlari dan memanggil semua suster untuk membawakan saya dengan segera untuk di tangani .
mata semakin lemah untuk dibuka , tapi harus aku paksakan untuk tetap sadar . sadar tak sadar aku langsung dibawa keruang ugd untuk mendapatkan perawatan , luka-luka dibersihkan , lalu aku dibius setengah sadar untuk dilakukannya operasi penjahitan pada dagu , yap sekitar 8jahitan didapatkan oleh dagu ini .

saat operasi berjalan lancar dan luka-luka sudah dibersihkan , aku lihat sekitar , semua orang berdiri di ruangan dan menangis , air mata pun mulai lagi terjatuh dari mata , tak tega rasanya membuat semua orang repot dan khawatir , beberapa jam kemudian , datang ibu yang jauh-jauh dari tempat kerjanya , betapa kagetnya saat aku melihat ia berlari , menghampiri , dan memelukku dengan air mata yang berjatuhan , betapa menyesal nya saya membuat orang-orang yang saya sayangi mengkhawatirkan saya . 

akhirnya dokter memutuskan untuk rawat inap selama 1 malam untuk kelancaran pemeriksaan , terutama pada tulang rusuk dan tulang rahang .....
setelah pulang kerumah , dokter merujuk untuk rontgen tulang , dan betul tulang rahang saya retak , penderitaan belum berakhir ... dokter mengatakan bahwa saya tidak akan bisa makan normal selama satu bulan , dan operasi pun harus dilakukan untuk meratakan kembali tulang rahang yang retak . lagi-lagi aku membuat ibu menangis dan pusing dibuat oleh masalahku .semalaman ibuku shalat tahajud dan terus memberikan doa agar aku tidak perlu di operasi , dan lagi-lagi Allah memberikan keajaiban , tulang rahangku retak , tapi posisi mulut mulai kembali normal (bisa ditutup) , dokter pun menarik kembali keputusan untuk operasi dan menyarakan minum obat kalsium dengan rutin .

sejak tragedi itu, saya sadar betapa pentingnya pamit dan minta izin jika ingin berangkat , shalt sebelum melakukan segala aktivitas , dana saya sangat bersyukur , karna Allah masih mengizinkan saya untuk hidup .
walau rasanya masih ada dendam tertanam pada orang yang menabrak saya , dan meninggalkan saya terkapar di tengah jalan , semoga Allah membalas perbuatan orang tersebut .


proses penjahitan



luka lecet



proses penjahitan&pembiusan


hasil rontgen tulang rahang yang retak


Senin, 19 Desember 2011

A world without you


"NO MORE YOU"


You
just go
dissapear
and never come back
let me here alone , with a jar of my hopeless


I'm crying
I'm dying
you don't care
no one care


leave me alone!
thats your choice
I don't want to see you again
let me here
alone
In my own world 


A day without you
everything seems different
A world without you
everything seems so hard
A year with out you
everything seems useless


go !
now , this is my world
no more you
my world , is a world without you
my world ..
maybe can be a perfect world
Where I can see you smile
when you don't get to see me cry
my world , is a world where you don't love me anymore

by endah wahyunni @endahwah









Mission Failed

Good morning ,have a bad 20 tuesday december 2011 . this should be our happy 11 . but the mission failed , and today is just a failed anniversary .

responses to my blog






kritik dan saran ... ditunggu 

Just ... love your mom

"Aku sayang ibu"

umur 10 tahun : Aku sayang ibu !
umur 14 tahun : Ibu mengganggu sekali ! aku benci dia
umur 18 tahun : saya ingin meninggalkan rumah ini !
umur 25 tahun : ibu , apa kabar ?
umur 30 tahun : ibu , maafkan saya yang mengecewakanmu selama ini
umur 50 tahun : ibu , saya menyesal , maaf kan saya , kembalilah , kumohon , saya tidak ingin kehilanganmu .
umur 70 tahun : walau ini terlambat , tapi sesungguhnya aku menyayangimu ibu

berfikir sebelum berkata , berfikir sebelum bertindak , berfikir sebelum menyesal.
semoga bermanfaat :)

I LOVE YOU MOM <3

Always you , you and you

By myself , original from my own mind and my experience (by endah wahyunni)

"YOU+ME = LOVE"


If there is you , there will be me
If there is me , there will be you
If there is us , there will be love


music is love
and love is you
when you playing a song for me
When I look at you ..it seems like you're a perfect person in the world
the feel like .. I don't want to stop the music
it seems like , you're a great musician 


you sing a song for me
I sing a song for you
we sing a song together
you're my sunshine , my only sunshine
How beautiful life when I'm with you


dancing in the moonlight
dancing in the sunshine
I don't care when I dance , where I dance
as long as I dance with you
when we are dancing in the beach
It's like the birds singing to us
Sun shining for us
the fish watching to us
and
the sand praying to us


everything
everytime
everywhere
I want to spent all my time with you
no one else ... just you


I never feel alone
I never feel sad
everytime you hold my hand
I feel calm
I feel relax
becasue I know ... you were here with me


When I feel sad
When I crying
When I'm dissapointed
When I'm stress
and When my tears drop from my eyes ...
you always wipe my tears
you always said "don't cry , you're not beautiful when the tears drop from your eyes,don't be afraid , I'm here when you need me"
You know ? My heart is melt 
when you said that ... I want to cry as loud as I can
because I'm afraid to losing you , how perfect you're for me.


I love you everyday
I love you more and more
I have a lot of plans to spent all my whole time with you
getting married with you
have a perfect daughter and son
take care of them
and growing old with you
because love is never getting old


I dream
I hope 
I wish
I'm getting old with you
growing old with you 
and your love for me never getting old


I wish we are growing old together
I don't care whats god plans
eventhough I have to leaving you first
I hope were next to me 
I hope you sing a song for me
I hope you wipe my tears
I hope you dancing with me
I hope we do everything we can .. do everything that we do when we are still young


together
forever
with you
with our love
what a beautiful life 
what a beautiful hope
it's because of you





~ 100% by endah wahyunni , go follow @endahwah ~










Minggu, 18 Desember 2011

Just dance!

MY OWN OPINION , A 100% MY OWN OPINION.

"Just dance . gonna be okay" - Lady gaga



we don't have to be a professional dancer If we want to dance , dance means move shake move enjoy the music while your body moving .

you don't have to be a beautiful girl,skinny,fair or rich if you want dancing and you want to be a dancer , dance doesn't depend on that ! who says if you aren't perfect , you can't dance ? everybody can dance . play the music and shake you body , move you body , just enjoying the music ! easy right ?

take a deep breath , listen the music , and dance !


Dance can make you forget all your problems , make yourself easier and get a lot of fun . dance can prevent you to get stress . 


when you feel sad , just dance ! play the music as loud as you want , you will enjoy your dance and the music . I'm sure you won't sad anymore no more :)

I don't want dancers who want to dance , I want dancers who need to dance - george balanchine

everybody can dance , kids,teenager,adult . everyone ! anyone !
as long as your body enjoy the music , you can dance . dance is a good activity to do . fun but sometimes exhausting . turn on the stereo , ask your friend to dance together


just keep calm and dance on , stay calm , stay cool , enjoy !
don't underestimate someone's who want to dance .


you don't have to take a course , you don't have to be beautiful for dancing . everyone who dance , they're dancer ! dancer doesn't mean a perfect and a beautiful person . dancer is someone who dance . right ?
how can we know the dancer from the dance ? everybody know how to dance , and I believe god knows how to dance too . BE CONFIDENT ! just dance ! just dance ! 
nobody cares if you can't dance well , just get up , and dance !

you can dance everywhere and everytime ,  there is a lot of short-cuts to happiness , and dance is one of them .to dance is to be out of yourself , larger , more beautiful , more powerful .sometimes people dance just with feet , you know what ? someone who just dance with feet than someone who dance with feet and heart , is really different . someone who dance with feet and heart , is great . 

dancing is a hidden languange from our soul . dance is a truth , without lie . dance is a song from the body , either of joy ... or pain :) .Just dance eventhough no one is watching you .




~BY ENDAH WAHYUNNI  , A 100% PURE FROM MY OWN OPINION . @ENDAHWAH~