RANDOM #2

randoem poems
BY endah wahyunni - @endahwah
DEAR PLAGIAT , NO COPY PASTE PLEASE :--) !


Have you ever wondered which hurts the most ?
saying something and wishing you had not
or saying nothing and wishing you had


I'm sorry I had nothing to say that night
where's my happy ending ?
my whole life is a dark room 
one big dark room


I try as hard as I can 
every single day for you
but it still seems as though it isn't enough


some people notice me
but they aren't the people I need
to notice me..


I try so..
so hard for you
but you never notice


I would kill myself 
but I'm scared..
you would all forget about me


And in days like this , there's nothing to left to say or feel

RANDOM #1

randoem poems
BY endah wahyunni - @endahwah
DEAR PLAGIAT , NO COPY PASTE PLEASE :--) !

How do you do that ? act like you don't care , like you don't feel anything.
Because I can't do that.
I feel , I feel everything.

You can run away from your problems
But you're just gonna find new ones that pop up

What do you do when no one's around to see?
What do you do when no one's around to hear?
What do you do when no one's around to care ?

Your smile says you've got it together
But your eyes are telling me it's not true

I haven't slept very well since the last time that we spoke
Sometimes it's so hard and I just want to unmeet you

I never stopped loving you , I just stopped showing it
Sometimes I sad and tired and miserable for no reason at all

Telling the truth and making someone crying .. is better
Than telling a lie and making someone smiling

I really miss you talking to me
I searched for you in every man I loved
But sometimes , you miss the memories , not the person

it might "kills" inside us

“The truth hurts the most when you know it’s true.”


“Jangan membohongi diri sendiri!” Begitu biasanya peringatan yang diberikan kepada seseorang untuk jujur pada dirinya sendiri. Tapi apa sebenarnya bohong terhadap diri sendiri itu apa ? Bohong kepada diri sendiri sebenarnya konsep yang masih kaburbuat saya. Menurut sebagian orang,ini artinya mengingkari apa yang menjadi kehendak hatinya yang paling dalam. Tapi kehendak hati yang paling dalam itu apa maksudnya? keinginan ? perasaan ? atau apa ? Sekali lagi, ini adalah konsep yang kabur dan belum jelas


“It's not a lie if you don't tell the truth. 
But it's fucked up if you falsify the fact.” 
― Toba Beta, My Ancestor Was an Ancient Astronaut


Biasanya seseorang dikatakan berbohong pada diri sendiri jika menyatakan kepada diri sendiri berbeda dari yang dirasakan oleh diri sendiri. Seperti halnya masalah perasaan . you said that you don't love him/her anymore to everyone , you said to yourself that you don't love that person anymore . But deep inside your soul and your heart , you know that you still in love with him/her . and it's gonna be your big lie . 


You act like you don't care , but you do. You act like you hate him/her , but you don't . You act like you don't love him/her anymore , but you do. Someone who really knows the truth in yourself , is yourself.Kamu bakal menyadari betapa kamu sayang sama orang itu , saat dia benar-benar pergi ninggalin kamu.Disaat seperti inilah , kamu bakal menyadari , betapa menyesalnya kamu selama ini setelah membohongi diri sendiri , dan tidak menyatakan kebenaran dan kejujuran.


it might "kills" inside us


saat ucapan tak sejalan dengan hati , inilah hal yang paling menyiksa.saat kamu berkata "aku baik-baik saja" ,dan semua orang percaya , sedangkan kamu tau bahwa kamu sama sekali tidak baik-baik saja.


telling the truth is the hardest things to do , but it will be better if you tell the truth , than you regret cause you never have a chance to tell the truth.

a man who will fight for your honor

this songs is really touching for a girl 


Chicago - Fight for your honor


Tonight it's very clear
As we're both lying here
There's so many things I wanna say
I will always love you
I will never leave you alone

Sometimes I just forget, say things I might regret
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I don't wanna lose you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero that you're dreaming of
Gonna live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love

You keep me standing tall
You'll help me through it all
I'm always strong when you're beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero that you're dreaming of
Gonna live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love

Just like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time I'll save the day
Take you to my castle far away

I am the man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero that you're dreaming of
Gonna live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love

Only tears,heaven and grandma ♥

It's been 1months since grandma passed away , no one can forget her . 
I'm the one of that . I can't forget you grandma
you're like my second mother
I still remember when you gave me some money and chocolate
I still remember when you sing a happy song for me
I know that you love me so much , same as the way I loved you so much


I still have a lot of questions to god
why god take her as soon as this
this isn't a good time
not by this way
not by cancer
not by the way that disease killing my grandma slowly


Everytimes I remember about grandma
my tears drop
how much I love you grandma
sometimes I wish you could saw me married
but god has another plan
you should gone
I'm happy , cause cancer won't hurt you anymore
But I'm mad , why I have to lost you by this way ?


I still remember when I got a called
And the informed me that you're just gone
that's like hit my heart 
tears suddenly drops from my eyes


sometimes I want to flashback to my childhood
to the moment when you play with me
to the moment when you make me calm when I lost my doll
to the moment when you touch my hair softly
I love your smell grandma


I hope you happy in heaven now
get a peace
get a happiness


in the world without you
I'm just counting .. how much my tears drop when I miss you grandma
sometimes I worried
would you know my name if I saw you in heaven ?
would you remember me ? your grandchild
would you remember our memory ?


grandma
sometimes I wish I could save you from the cancer
sometimes I wish I could be a best doctor in the world , so I could help you , save you , loivng you for a long time
now I'm just regret ...
why I'm not beside you when you need someone to accompany you


.....


I can't turn back the times
I can't ignore god's plan
now it's only tears , heaven , and grandma
but no matter what happend 
you're still in my heart and my mind
I know you still watching me from heaven


I love you grandma , I love you like the way you love me

No more you , I miss you

by : Endah Wahyunni

"missing you"

long time no see

long time no communication

long time no contact

how are you now ?

have you eat ?

have you sleep ?

have you move on ?

I don't know where you are

where are you now ?

I miss you

I wanna hold you tight

I wanna hug you

I'm missing you

thought I haven't slept in two days

I think of you tonight

I miss the way you hold my hand

I miss the way you me me calm

I miss the way you make me laugh

I miss you so bad

these hands miss yours

cause the spaces between my fingers

are right where yours fit perectly

these eye miss yours

I miss the way we look each other

I miss the way you wipe my tears

now no more and no one wipe my tears

I'm just let my tears fall

I miss the moment when we sing a song together

I miss the moment when you sing a song for me

and I sing a song for you

but there is no more like that

you're the reason for the tearsdrop on my guitar

this city

give me a lot of memories with you

every moment with you is the sweetest one

someday I will leave this town

and forget you

no ..... I mean

I'll keep you in my mind and in my heart

because I realized , you're the best one that I ever loved

BY : ENDAH WAHYUNNI @ENDAHWAH

You're my everything

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well, 
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space, 
You're every minute of my everyday.
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/m/michael_buble/everything.html ]
And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man, 
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through, 
And you know that's what our love can do.

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

Maybe I'm a good actress

If we talk about the truth and honest , I'm officially missing you .

I miss your sweet smile , so good to me , so right .

I miss the way we laugh.

But ...

the fact , I'm pretending like I'm not like that

I have to pretending like everything is ok

I have to pretending like I'm not hurt

I have to smile , although my heart wants to cry

this hand miss your

this heart miss you

If you thought that I'm strong enough ... you wrong

If you thought that I'm not good enough .. you wrong

Maybe I'm a good actress

So I can handle and pretend , like nothings wrong with me 

Mission Failed

Good morning ,have a bad 20 tuesday december 2011 . this should be our happy 11 . but the mission failed , and today is just a failed anniversary .

can't sleep

I look at the clock , and clock shows it's 11:45 pm . thats why I feel my eyes is really really tired . hoaaahm I think I have to stop blogging and going to bed , see you soon human !

silence of love

watch this and tell me If a tears drop suddenly from your eyes ! enjoy it ~

make a move ?

Moving on is an easy thing if you start accepting everything

you said move on

but ... where do I go ?

where are you now ?

how are you ?

hows your family ?

have you move on ?

you tell me about make a move

from one heart .. to the other heart

I'm just so happy you came back in my life. You don't know how much I've missed you.

I'm officially missing you

this is not easy to move on

everytime I try to make a move

you come to my mind ...

tears drop on my books

the truth ... i love you

the lie ... i hate you

deep in my heart I love you so bad

but ... I should let you move on

Although my heart is stuck on you

I have to try to let you go

let you dissapear

let you leave me

and let you happy

-BY ENDAH WAHYUNNI @ENDAHWAH-

Enchanted - Taylor Swift

There I was again tonightForcing laughter, faking smilesSame old tired, lonely place
Walls of insincerityShifting eyes and vacancyVanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you
Your eyes whispered "have we met?"Across the room your silhouetteStarts to make it's way to me
The playful conversation startsCounter all your quick remarksLike passing notes in secrecy
And it was enchanting to meet youAll I can say is I was enchanted to meet you
This night is sparkling, don't you let it goI'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way homeI'll spend forever wondering if you knewI was enchanted to meet you
The lingering question kept me up2 AM, who do you love?I wondered 'til I'm wide awake
And now I'm pacing back and forthWishing you were at my doorI'd open up and you would say, "Hey"
It was enchanting to meet youAll I know is I was enchanted to meet you
This night is sparkling, don't you let it goI'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way homeI'll spend forever wondering if you knewThis night is flawless, don't you let it goI'm wonderstruck, dancing around all aloneI'll spend forever wondering if you knewI was enchanted to meet you
This is me praying thatThis was the very first pageNot where the story line endsMy thoughts will echo your nameUntil I see you againThese are the words I held backAs I was leaving too soonI was enchanted to meet you
Please don't be in love with someone elsePlease don't have somebody waiting on you
This night is sparkling, don't you let it goI'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way homeI'll spend forever wondering if you knewThis night is flawless, don't you let it goI'm wonder-struck, dancing around all aloneI'll spend forever wondering if you knowI was enchanted to meet you
Please don't be in love with someone else

Please don't have somebody waiting on you

jar of tears

love .. everything seems so perfect until he leave me alone

leave me with nothing

leave me with hopeless

leave me with a jar of tears

do you know how it feel ? I feel like I can't breathe , he make me hard to breathe .

all the promises

all the plan 

do you forget it ?

I hope you aren't , cause I didn't forget it

every moment with you is a special moment 

but a real life is a real life

this ain't a fairytale

I can't get my happily ever after

you leave me here alone

you let me dying alone

you leave me crying alone

you let me alone with a jar of tears

I count my tears until I got you 




-by endah wahyunni @endahwah-

kata siapa ?

siapa bilang single itu ga laku ? siapa bilang single itu ga enak ? siapa bilang single itu merod ?


kalau ada yang nanya : enak ga single ? , bakal aku jawab keras dan lantang , ENAK BANGET ! ga selamanya kok single itu berarti orang yang ga laku-laku alias gak ada yang suka . aihh siapa bilang tuh ? kamu yang bilang ? #gaplooook *tamparan single*


single itu prinsip , jomblo ... itu baru nasib ! single itu pilihan orang-orang bijak , orang-orang yang punya fikiran lebih dewasa (mereun) . lagian single ga buruk buruk amat kali .


kata siapa sih orang single malem minggu merod di rumah denger lagu galau , duh , kata siapa brooooo ? bisa aja kan keluar hang out sama temen-temen yang super kece dan gokil , daripada ke cafe sama pujaan hati berdua , dan ngabisin dompet , ha to the ha .


kata siapa sih orang single ga ada yang nganter jemput ? so tau tuh yang ngomong . mulai dari angkot,ojek atau lebih elit lagi taxi , atau bahkan minta temen-temen buat nganterin atau lebih halus lagi yaaa nebeng . bisa kan ? hidup gausah di bikin susah kali , just because you're single , doesn't mean everything isn't easy . 
kamu single ? dan berada di antara orang-orang yang pacaran ? sama sekali ga buruk . harusnya kamu jangan merod , malah bangga dan kasian sama mereka . hahaha

mau tau kenapa saya ngomong kaya gini ? ya karna saya ngalamin sendiri guys . the differences betweeh have a relationSHIT and being single . single itu orang-orang yang bisa jadi diri mereka sendiri , mereka gapernah berpura-pura buat jadi terlihat lebih OK didepan orang , dan bermuka dua dan uhhhh masih banyak lagi , walau kadang kalau di cari cari kekurangannya sih , ya pasti single juga ada kekurangannya , tapi ga banyak ! lo lo semua juga gaperlu tuh autis blackberry gara-gara bbm-an sama si doi , sampe-sampe lagi nguap aja di bbm . syittil ~.banyak banget hal yang bisa kamu lakuin selagi single , dan gabisa dilakuin sama orang yang sedang menjalani sebuah relationshit .


kalau ada yang bilang "nikmati masa lapang , sebelum datang masa sibuk" bermakna kok buat seorang singlele . pokoknya ketimbang kita mikirin mantan , sedih , galau atau bahkan memutuskan untuk bunuh diri ... loh ? mending lakuin apapun yang bisa kita lakuin karna kalau single .., single means freedom !

1. .bebas melirik gebetan,kecengan,doi,pujaan,idola,seseorang,sesuatu,kenalan,deket dll sama siapapun  . "cute boys! wuw !"
2. bebas dari kegiatan wajib lapor 24x jam sama pacar yang melebihin warga sama pos kamling dan pa rt , alias izin ini itu sama pacar buat melakukan segala aktivitas , iwwwhhh.
3. paling penting nih , kamu jadi punya banyak waktu banget buat keluarga , teman dan bahkan diri sendiri !
4. terbebas dari rasa khawatir menyakiti perasaan orang lain alis perasaan "si pacar"
5. asik banget nih no.5 , IRIT PULSA + IRIT DUIT = HEMAT . serius deh pacaran tuh menguras pula dan uang banget , karna terkadang bbman tuh gacukup , apalgi nongkrong di warteg saat malem minggu . keuntungan paling gede nih buat yang single . hahaha
6. buat yang bosen sama gaya , kalau single tuh pasti bebas banget buat bereksperimen dengan gaya pakaian dan rambut , tanpa ada protes celotehan dan larangan dari "si pacar"
7. bersenang-senang dengan teman cewe selama mungkin "GET READY FOR PAJAMAS PARTY , YIPPI"
8. nonton film cewe yang bisa bikin meler dan ingusan sana-sini tanpa protes dari "si pacar" , ASIK DAAH!
9. bebas dari pertengkaran,perselingkuhan dan kekecewaan tentunya . "oh thanks god I'm not regret to be single"
10. bebas hanting cowo "buat dijadikan pacar" dengan saringan dan kriteria yang lebih baik dari sebelumnya , tapi dari pada nemuin cowo yang woth it , mending stay single dulu deh... ;)
11. enggak harus selalu berdandan cantik , kalau orang cuek dan punya pacar apalagi "si pacar" minta dandan cantik da ini itu ihhh gak gak gak .
12. tabungan jadi lebih gemuk !
13. ngumpul bareng temen kapanpun dan dimana pun ! friends is everything , NOTED IT !

banyak banget kan ? pokoknya single itu gak rugi . nikmatin aja masa-masa single kamu sebaik mungkin , karna emang sih gak selamanya juga kamu bakal single . because someday you'll get a good man and you'll be treated the way you deserve :)

lagu lama dengan lirik yang meaningful

Jikustik - Akhirilah ini dengan indah

Aku tak kan pernah jadi sempurna

Ingin aku tetap seperti adanya

Jangan salahkan, jika diriku mengabaikanmu

Semua alasan yang sungguh sempurna, untuk tinggalkanmu

REFF:

Ketika slamanya pun harus berakhir

Akhirilah ini dengan indah

Kau harus relakan setiap kepingan

Waktu dan kenangan

Ketika temukan hukum tak lagi bisa

Menenangkan hatimu yang sedih

Aku memilihmu mengakhiri ini dengan indah

Engkau mencoba menahan isa, tangis yang dalam

Dengan sisa-sisa ketegarannya

Masih kau simpan

It's hard , and It's called "move on"

yap , six letters , two words , easy to say , hard to explain , harder to do , thats what I called "move on" .

move on itu ga semudah pindah ke tempat duduk baru , ga semudah ganti display picture kalau bosen . saat kita udah putus , dan sendiri (re :single) , kondisi yang sama sekali ga bisa di terima itu ya adalah ... "we aren't not him or her special anymore no more"  .

terkadang kita bodoh , menanti hal yang sudah pasti tidak mungkin , ya itulah move on , memang sangat sulit untuk dilakukan . walaupun kita udah tau bahwa kita gaada kesempatan , tapi hati gabisa bohong ... mulut bisa aja bilang "gue udah move on" , tapi hati tetep stay on si "ituh".

siapapun pasti pengen banget buat bisa move on , jangankan orang yang pacaran 2-3taun putus dan gabisa moveon ..orang yang baru pacaran berbulan-bulan aja masih gabisa dengan gampang move on ke orang yang baru .

banyak alasan kenapa orang gabisa move on :

1. takut sakit hati lagi
2. trauma
3. masih kecewa
4. terlanjur sayang
5. terlanjur cinta
6. dan bahkan ........... terlanjur gila

sebenernya move on itu harus dilakukan , karna kita gaboleh terus-terusan larut dalam bayang-bayang masa lalu . mungkin kita gabisa move on , tapi gimana kalau orang yang kita sayang dengan mudahnya move on kesana kemari sesuka hati . 

pertama , pasti rasanya sakit banget . kita disini masih ngesot-ngesot gabisa moving on , tapi si "ituh" enak-enaknya bisa move on kesana kemari .... "hey boy , I'm still here , stuck on you , but you there with a lot of fvking bitchy girl"

tapi kita gaboleh ganggu dan merusak prosess move on orang yang kita sayang , kalau emang dia ga sayang kita lagi . ya mau gimana ? hati gabisa dipaksa loh . gabaik . You have to let him go , If you love him , you have to let him to meet the new one and get a better one . cause everybody deserve to get it .

move on itu pasti selalu aja ada cobaan , diem-diem di timeline update keliatan kaya udah bisa move on . padahal realitanya masih suka ngepo twitter si "ituh" . gilirian liat si  "ituh" mentionan sama beragai macam cewe , duh langsung deh merod dan lapur . kadang giliran udah nyoba cari yang baru .. eh ga cocok , atau bahkan kita banding-bandingin sama mr.Ex , tentu aja masalahnya gaakan kelar-kelar . kapan mau 100% move on sih kalau masih terus inget mr.Ex , you have to forget him ! let him go ! let it be ! everything will be good in a good time . god knows the best for us .

mau sampai kapan .... "stuck with a same boy , stuck with a same brokenhearted problems..." 

nanti giliran orang lain udah kemanaaa... ini masih dimana .

emang sih .... remove from facebook , delete contact bbm , block from twitter is easy... But it's hard to erase from heart and mind . But everybody have to try to move on , move to the better one , move to a good one , move to a new life :}

b-r-o-k-e-n

sakit hati tuh ibarat guci mahal yang retak dan hancur . kalaupun kamu coba buat nyatuin gucci-nya pake lem SUPER , walaupun itu gucci nyatu lagi , retaknya tetep keliatan , berbekas , dan gaakan sebagus sebelumnya .

diduain  , di putusin , di selingkuhin , dibohongin , dikecewain , di-harkosi-in . siapa yang suka sih ? mau cewe mau cowo juga pasti gaakan suka di kaya gituin kan . ada yang bilang sakit hati itu ada obatnya.... "jatuh cinta lagi" , DUH , HELLO , WOY ! jatuh cinta tuh ga semudah jatuh cinta sama barang discount di mall . bukannya ga mau , tapi masih sakit hati sama yang sebelumnya , dan kadang sakitnya bakal lamaaaaa banget hilangnya . 

Galau salah satu efek samping paling dahsyat dan luar biasa dan masalah persakit hatian , mulai dari nangis beringus-ingus , mogok makan , ngelamun , denger lagu yang melow selow swallow , bahkan bunuh diri #aih .

• ga rela habis di putusin .... langsung deh nyetel secondhand serenade - it's not over

"it's not over ... it's not over , it can't be over"

•  para harkosed sih nyetelnya raisa-apalah arti menunggu 

          "Sekarang aku tersadar,Cinta yang ku tunggu tak kunjung datang,Apalah arti aku menunggu,Bila kamu tak cinta lagi"


Sekalinya sakit hati tuh .... susah buat maafin . kecewa dan ga akan pernah lupa . ngobatin orang yang sakit hati tuh ga semudah balikin telapak tangan . tapi sebenernya buat apa sih kita larut dalam kekecewaan , harusnya bawa enjoy dan jadiin pengalaman , gaperlu sampe dipendem bahkan jadi dendam . gabaik buat diri kita sendiri . emang sih sakit hati itu ga enak banget , tapi sebenernya masih banyak yang harus kita fikirin selain sakit hati yang kita terima .

makanya , di sakitin ga enak kan ? sebelum kita nyakitin orang lain tuh , bayangin dulu , gimana coba kalau posisi kita itu orang yang kita sakitin . sakit hati kalau di bahas tuh gaakan pernah beres , yang ngontrolnya nafsu, emosi dan setan . biarin aja orang yang bikin kita sakit hati kena karma dari tuhan.tuhan itu maha adil .

karma itu berlaku kok .