Only tears,heaven and grandma ♥

It's been 1months since grandma passed away , no one can forget her . 
I'm the one of that . I can't forget you grandma
you're like my second mother
I still remember when you gave me some money and chocolate
I still remember when you sing a happy song for me
I know that you love me so much , same as the way I loved you so much


I still have a lot of questions to god
why god take her as soon as this
this isn't a good time
not by this way
not by cancer
not by the way that disease killing my grandma slowly


Everytimes I remember about grandma
my tears drop
how much I love you grandma
sometimes I wish you could saw me married
but god has another plan
you should gone
I'm happy , cause cancer won't hurt you anymore
But I'm mad , why I have to lost you by this way ?


I still remember when I got a called
And the informed me that you're just gone
that's like hit my heart 
tears suddenly drops from my eyes


sometimes I want to flashback to my childhood
to the moment when you play with me
to the moment when you make me calm when I lost my doll
to the moment when you touch my hair softly
I love your smell grandma


I hope you happy in heaven now
get a peace
get a happiness


in the world without you
I'm just counting .. how much my tears drop when I miss you grandma
sometimes I worried
would you know my name if I saw you in heaven ?
would you remember me ? your grandchild
would you remember our memory ?


grandma
sometimes I wish I could save you from the cancer
sometimes I wish I could be a best doctor in the world , so I could help you , save you , loivng you for a long time
now I'm just regret ...
why I'm not beside you when you need someone to accompany you


.....


I can't turn back the times
I can't ignore god's plan
now it's only tears , heaven , and grandma
but no matter what happend 
you're still in my heart and my mind
I know you still watching me from heaven


I love you grandma , I love you like the way you love me